I'm lost, for just "a bit"

I'm trying to be very objective driven , for my work.

Everything I work on, must have some objectives behind, whether it can help me to enhance my working experience, whether it can make me a better employee, or whether it can make me more intelligent in making decision.

What do I want to achieve by working?

1. I want to gain experience in managing a business. In this case, brand management.

2. I want to learn to make a good decision with justification, and not just based on my own guts

3. I want to increase my personal skills and competency, be it in presentation skills, time management, people management, budgeting..etc etc.

However, these seems off-track right after the business review I had on last week.

I have a feel that I can't "qiong" any-more, because of the inconclusive direction and the poor leadership.

I have a feel that I've gained my experience in doing a very nice waterfall chart instead of marketing plan.

I have a feel that it's not worth to work hard for my company any-more.

I'm trying very hard to stay positive.

I'm trying to believe all the strategies are going to work.

I'm trying to put back my own emotion and just treat this as a "work".

But, I just can't.

I care the business, I care the brand.

However, the more care I dump in, the more negative I'm.

How to deal with it? I'm lost, for just "a bit".

You've got mail

One of my colleague has lent me a DVD ==> You've got a mail, stared by Tom Hanks and Meg Ryan, back to year 1998.

The movie is so lovely and it has provoked me to write this blog post.

Well, I always want a man who can write beautiful words to me, be it love letter, a card during special day or just lovely sms (thanks to technology) to show how much he loves me.

But God always don't give exactly what you want.
I've tried to get him to write me something, but he always respond in such a way that he hates to do all these, especially expressing what he thinks about me, what he loves about me.
Will I feel sad or down? Yes, I always feel down about it, but what to do?
I just can keep this deep in my heart and wish. Because I dare not ask any more after few attempts of trying.

Ohya, maybe you will think that he is not good in writing. However, in fact, he is a good writer. At least, he was a good writer. He owns a blog during his uni time and he can write, beautifully.

I really wish, maybe when I'm getting older, he will realise and get noticed that deep inside my heart, there is a wish from me to get him to write me some love letters, and he would do me that favour so that my wish can come true.